This role has been one of the most challenging yet. It has certainly shown and taught me things about myself that I have never witnessed or discovered before. This role has brought to the surface for clear observation my insecurities, weaknesses, and my strengths. It has shown me how hard I am willing to work for the craft I love, and how much harder I still have the capacity to be able to work. It has shown me how much I care about the realities of the world that go beyond myself, and what I wish to change. It has shown me the individual and specific perspective that I carry through life as a black woman, and the inability to put it up on a shelf, even within the imaginary circumstances of my art form. It has fueled me to not be able to hold my tongue on the ignorance that I see. It has forced me to face the reality and reminder that I do not always have everything under control, and that I do make mistakes. It has shown me the importance in being able to let go. It has shown me what I can do under pressure, both external and self-inflicted, and how much more I may be capable of. It has shown me I can be my own worst enemy. It has shown me how much I value and need honesty over all within this space, both from myself and those who surround me. It has shown me the power and beauty in being in the present. It has shown me that I am human, imperfect and all, with a voice. And, whether or not I got everything out of this opportunity that I envisioned, or if I will ever take on the likes of this character again, I am grateful for the lessons and experiences. And, I shall lay Lizzy to rest in abundant gratitude, knowing that I know myself in the current, and am ready for what is next. And, it is my hope we all are open to and have these opportunities for reflection and evolution. In absolutely everything, there is something to be learned. May we pay attention, and embrace it all.
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